Friday, November 02, 2018

title TBA, I guess

I couldn't think of a decent title. I'm in a bit of a grumpy mood, mostly (I'm assuming) due to hunger. I'm in the process of cooking dinner now, so the hunger issue will be dealt with relatively soon, but other things ARE irritating me. Old man time!!

Jimmy Kimmel, and his "film yourself cruelly lying to your young children" shtick he does every year. Why is this still a thing?

Also, I'm several thousand words behind schedule on Nano. Which I don't *super* care about - I'll write what I write - but it does minorly bug, ya know?

And the fact that Trench (the latest Twenty One Pilots album) is ...only okay. I've listeened to it about 4 or 5 times through now, and my consensus is: Starts off really strong, has a weak/meandering middle, finishes strong. Still think My Blood is the second worst song TOP has ever produced (I skip it each go around on the cd) but Bandito, Jumpsuit, Levitate (those two really ought to be played back-to-back on the radio, like Queen's We Will Rock You/We Are the Champions, or Green Day's Brain Stew/Jaded), Morph, Legend, Leave the City and Pet Cheetah are all good tunes.

Hold on, food cooking break.


And there's something womlu with our computer and so all the text that I'm writing shows up green and illegible (but it doesn't publish that way, fortunately, so, it's not all bad, I guess.)

And it's the last weekend before Election Day, which means I'm "on call" this weekend, in case any last minute political orders come through (it's never happened in the 10 years that I've been doing this, but they always ask, and we almost always say that we'll be available for them.)

And... I think those are the big things that were bugging me. And like I said, I'm sure once I get some food in my belly, I'll feel much better. I think I'm going to go do that now.

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

from my phone, yo

Well, this is different. I'm blogging this from my phone, because it's late and I'm tired, and it's something I can do. I don't necessarily have anything of interest to say about it, but it's a first for me. Tomorrow is halloween. Kinda crazy that we're at that point in the year already. And a week from today is (finally) election day.  I truly hope for a better result than the last one.
(I am honestly unsure of what tuesdays outcome will be. 16 seemed like a sure thing, after all. This year ive been trying to keep my expectations low. Guess well find out in a weeks time.) Anyway, blogging has now officially been done, which means I can try to get some rest now. . Haven't been sleeping well lately. I blame the news, mostly. And getting older, maybe. And the seasons. And our 13 year old mattress. Sheesh, I am totally turning into an old man who just complains about everything. ..

Thursday, October 25, 2018

obligation complete

I'm too tired to do much more than that, sorry.

Friday, October 12, 2018

company loves misery

I mean, it's a small comfort, but at least I'm not the only employee that is feeling absolutely overwhelmed, overworked, overpressured and overstressed due to political season.

It's a testament to ...well, I guess to needing to pay bills and eat, that more of us haven't just said screw this and walked off the job. Because, hoo boy, if that were an option...

On the bright side, we did make 3rd quarter's budget, so there's a bonus coming at the end of the year for that. AND. There are only 20-something more days until the freaking midterms and then things will normalize for a bit. Hopefully.

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

delay tactics!

Yay, I have inspiration for a story!

Now comes the part where I decide to focus on research and tinkering with the plot in my mind instead of actually writing it.

Saturday, September 22, 2018


Went and had Chick-fil-a for the first time in, like two decades (probably closer to three, to be honest),  and... it did not live up to the hype that I had in my mind/memory. So few things really do. But, that just makes it that much easier to never need to eat there again. (I know, the politics of the owners should be enough, but I remembered the food as being SO good. Turns out, nope.)

Friday, September 21, 2018

100 days left

Random entry time!

Today is Stephen King's 71st birthday.

Relatedly, I recently finished watching season 1 of Mr. Mercedes (the streaming series from ...AT&T?? Man, does EVERYONE have a streaming service now?) Anyway, I picked up the DVD from the library (aka, sticking it to The Man) and watched the 10 episode season. Overall, I felt it was a pretty strong bit of television, and improved a lot on the novel. (I felt that the novel was standard King. I liked it a lot, but it wasn't one of his best.) ANyway, the series was immensly watchable, with a few things that didn't work. Oddly, there is a scene in the novel that was supremely disturbing that ...didn't work as well on screen. (Without getting spoilery, I'll just say Brady's younger brother.) And dream scenes bug me a lot lately, and there were a few of those that i felt were somewhat just padding. So, maybe if the series had been 8 episodes it would have been stronger? I mean, 10 didn't really wear out its welcome or anything, but it still could have been tightened up somewhat.
The music selection was top notch.  And I adored Fred and was always happy to see him in the credits. The casting of Brady, Hodges, and Jerome were all perfecto. And while my feelings toward book-Holly are ambivalent, tv series-Holly went a long way toward improving my outlook on the character.
Speaking of characters and improvment - Brady. Oh man, King tries (too hard, maybe?) in the novel to have you HATE him. And, yes, he's vile and murderous and so on, but ... the series just makes it so much better. Because while he's frightening and hateful, he's also ...more human? Like, there are moments where you can actually feel sympathy for him, and where he has glimpses of actual humanity that make him all the more complex. (Plus, he did murder a homophobic white supremacist, so he's not all bad, I guess...)
I read that a lot of people didn't like book-Hodges because he's selfish and puts others in danger at the cost of his obsession with Brady. Series-Hodges is unlikable for other reasons (he can be off-putting) but I think they toned down the "putting other people in danger" aspect to a more realistic degree.
Wow, I rambled about that a lot more than I had intended to. Suffice to say that I enjoyed the show, and once season 2 gets out on DVD, I'll check that out, too. (I wonder if they will stick to the Mr Mercedes trilogy...and if that means that there will be anything past a season 3. Book 2 didn't really focus on Brady much, actually so I'm guessing season 2 will follow more of book 3.... I dunno.


What else?

Silas is playing the Legend of Zelda (original flavor) and .... Link was kind of fat back in the day. Not body shaming, just observing.

Speaking of body shaming and Nintendo.
Actually, no. Not even gonna go there. (apologies for even approaching it, as I'm sure if you're aware of it, it's now (back) in your mind now...)

Tangentially related to THAT, though - overheard some people at work the other day discussing Brett Kavanaugh. More accurately, they were discussing the allegations against him. The gist of the conversation was that it was "a long time ago" when they were both in high school, and, bringing things up NOW was unfair and "back when I was in high school there were  boys who would try to sneak into women's bathrooms" and  blah blah blah, because people suck.  (Somewhat interestingly, we had a person who worked at the station with the same name as the current SC nominee, although his last name was spelled with a C instead of a K. Based on the little I know of both Bretts, I would prefer that *our* Brett was the one who would be deciding court cases.)

November cant' get here soon enough. I am SO freaking tired of political season.

I have watched about the first third of Avengers Infinity War so far, and so forgive me if this is answered later - but...why not use the Reality Stone to, um, make it so you have the others?

There's a new show starting on NBC on MOnday called Manifest, which looks a bit like a Lost-reboot, but I've watched the first segment (it's been posted up on YouTube) and It looks like it's going to focus more on the relationships than on the actual mystery of what happened, and I'm just not there for it. (Although I'm curious if Trump will get mentioned in the show at all. I mean, if you had disappeared in 2013, and then just arrived in 2018, THAT would certainly be a shock to discover. Hell, living through it has been a bit of  one. Also, if it did happen in real life, you know he'd take credit for the plane returning/blame Obama somehow.)

There are only 100 days left in 2018. Not sure how many of them will be blogging days, but I guess we'll see. And then after that.... I've been thinking about possibly not blogging anymore. I don't (typically) have a lot to talk about, and I don't know if anyone is even still reading. But, then, I've felt that way before, and have somehow always come back around, so who even knows.

Monday, September 03, 2018

so August was pretty quiet

Not that September is shaping up to be anything yet, either. I guess it's still too early to tell.


Anything interesting lately? Erm... I shaved my head yesterday, so... that has taken some time to adjust to. (Tomorrow I get to see all the reactions from coworkers. Oh, goody.)

Harper's car is in need of repairs of ...some magnitude, although exactly how much/what is still trying to be determined. Here's hoping that the universe is feeling kind.

I've been super uninspired when it comes to writing, and have been thinking that since normally all my story ideas are of the fantastical/sci-fi/not really realistic type... that maybe I should take a crack at writing something a little more ...grounded. It hasn't happened yet, but I have been thinking about it. I don't even know if that is possible for me - to write something that is about actual people having actual lives that could actually happen? Well, the idea is simmering in my head, we'll see if anything results from it.

Saturday, August 25, 2018

like rats off a sinking whatever

a LOT of people have been leaving/are leaving work lately/soon. It seems to happen like this every so often - there will be a rash of multiple folks all find other work (or get fired) all around the same time.
it doesn't really bother me - just makes me a little sad, is all. Most of these folks are good people (I'm sure they all are, but I don't KNOW all of them). Plus, since one of them is from my department, and another is someone that I work pretty closely with, MY workday is being impacted, which I'm not a fan of. And, sadly, I know that both of these coworkers would probably stay with the company, if they were being paid what they're actually worth. Stupid cheapskate corporation.

Sunday, August 12, 2018

top 100 scifi movies of all time

Oh, random articles on the internet...

So, just like how a few weeks ago I listed the top 100 horror movies (of all time!), now I've got the top 100 science fiction flicks, courtesy of this article at And, again, these are based off of scores from critics. And, again, bolding the ones I've seen.

100. Movement and Location (2015)
99.  Serenity (2005)
98.  Inception (2010)
97.  Twelve Monkeys (1996)
96.  Thelma (2017)
95.  Okja (2017)
94.  X-Men: Days of Future Past (2014)
93.  Captain America: Civil War (2016)
92.  Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
91.  Attack the Block (2011)
90.  THX 1138 (1971)
89.  Invasion of the Body Snatchers (1978)
88.  Repo Man (1984)
87.  The Hunger Games: Catching Fire (2013)
86.  Birdboy: The Forgotten Children (2017)
85.  Ghost in the Shell (1996)
84.  10 Cloverfield Lane (2016)
83.  Wonder Woman (2017)
82.  World on a Wire (1973)
81.  Midnight Special (2016)
80.  Escape From New York (1981)
79.  Guardians of the Galaxy (2014)
78.  Logan (2017)
77.  Westworld (1973)
76.  Evolution (2016)
75.  Mad Max 2: The Road Warrior (1982)
74.  WarGames (1983)
73.  Sleeper (1973)
72.  2046 (2005)
71.  Ex Machina (2015)
70.  A Clockwork Orange (1971)
69.  Under the Skin (2014)
68.  Godzilla (1954)
67.  Dawn of the Planet of the Apes (2014)
66.  Iron Man (2008)
65.  Jodorowsky's Dune (2014)
64.  Annihilation (2018)
63.  The Fly (1986)
62.  Planet of the Apes (1968)
61.  Time Bandits (1981)
60.  Minority Report (2002)
59.  The Survivalist (2017)
58.  The Endless (2018)
57.  Incredibles 2 (2018)
56.  Melancholia (2011)
55.  Superman (1978)
54.  The Martian (2015)
53.  Sorry to Bother You (2018)
52.  Paprika (2007)
51.  District 9 (2009)
50.  Star Wars: Episode VII - The Force Awakens (2015)
49.  The World's End (2013)
48.  Battle Royale (2000)
47.  Upstream Color (2013)
46.  Little Shop of Horror (1986)
45.  The Man Who Fell to Earth (1976)
44.  Arrival (2016)
43.  Blade Runner 2049 (2017)
42.  Isle of Dogs (2018)
41.  Marjorie Prime (2017)
40.  A Quiet Place (2018)
39.  Star Trek (2009)
38.  2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
37.  The Lobster (2016)
36.  Face/Off (1997)
35.  Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
34.  War For the Planet of the Apes (2017)
33.  Alien (1979)
32.  Spider-Man 2 (2004)
31.  Avatar (2009)
30.  Snowpiercer (2014)
29.  The Terminator (1984)
28.  Looper (2012)
27.  Aliens (1986)
26.  Children of Men (2006)
25.  Holy Motors (2012)
24.  The Iron Giant (1999)
23.  The Host (2007)
22.  Star Wars: Episode VIII - The Last Jedi (2017)
21.  Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind (1985)
20.  Back to the Future (1985)
19.  Superman II (1981)
18.  Black Panther (2018)
17.  Donnie Darko: The Director's Cut (2014)
16.  Brazil (1985)
15.  Blade Runner (1982)
14.  Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope (1977)
13.  Mad Max: Fury Road (2015)
12.  Hard to Be a God (2015)
11.  King Kong (1933)
10.  It's Such a Beautiful Day (2012)
9.   Solaris (1972)
8.   Her (2013)
7.   Close Encounters of the Third Kind (1977)
6.   E.T. The Extra-Terrstrial (1982)
5.   Werkmeister Harmonies (2001)
4.   Threads (1984)
3.   WALL-E (2008)
2.   Gravity (2013)
1.   Metropolis (1927)

Thursday, August 09, 2018

Doctor Doctor give me the news

the rest of that lyric doesn't apply to this, but whatevs. It's only slightly better than the first "doctor" related song that came to mind, which was Dr Feelgood.

Anyway, had a physical (sort of) today - basically it was the results from the last time I had a real physical (which was back in January).

Everything came back mostly normal. However...

I'm 161 lbs now. I don't have a scale, so I don't often get a chance to weigh myself, but i've been under 150 for ...well, for all my life, really, so that number came as a little bit of a surprise. Of course, I had on my shoes... and it's been a while since I've had a haircut. So.

Bloodwork results...

My glucose levels were near the high end of the normal range. So, the doc suggested cutting back on sugary drinks and snacks. Grumble.

And I had high ...liver something or other? Which came as a big shock, considering I don't drink alcohol at all.

And my 'bad' cholesterol levels were really excessive. So, I was told to avoid greasy/fatty foods to help bring that down.

I am supposed to go back in 3 months for a follow up, and if the cholesterol isn't improved, then I'll have to go on medication for it. Harumph.

Guess we'll see how things really are three months from now...

Wednesday, August 01, 2018


ugh. i still need to call and make an appointment for my yearly physical. SO don't want to. And it's not even that I hate the doctorbs office (although, sure, that plays a role) it's just the inconvenience and being pressured/blackmailed into doing it.
my work offers a 'discount' on the insurance. if you get a yearly physical - and have your doctorb sign a sheet saying you did it - then your rates are 50 bucks less than if you forego having the physical. This seems suspicious to me, and every year i fantasize about lawsuits to end the practice,, but, every year i just end up getting the physical to get the lower cost. I'm sure i'll do the same thing this year too. Just need to get it done before the end of September. blah.

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Just discovered Jessica Jones on Netflix.

We're not normally "binge" watchers - if we find a show we like, we'll typically watch an episode - or maybe two - a night.

We just finished episode 5.

The show is good, ya'll.

Friday, July 27, 2018

an old song turned 23

The following songs have been played recently on the *ahem*, "Classic Rock" station:

"In Bloom" by Nirvana
"You Oughta Know" by Alanis Morissette
"December" by Collective Soul

Now, In Bloom, having been released in 1991, is 27 years old.... But the other two songs came out in '95, making them only 23... um.

Still. Hearing songs that were popular in my 20s being played on the classic rock station just feels fundamentally... wrong, somehow.

Wednesday, July 18, 2018


so, i haven't logged into my facebook account in, easily, 5 years. (More, maybe?) I don't know that i could get in, even if I wanted to, because I certainly don't remember my password.
Despite that, I still get the occasional email from FB telling me updates that others have made. But.
The frustrating thing is that the emails show me only the first few words of the post.
So, I see things from Saren that say, "u can only pick one: Jeff Bezos"

...and then i have no idea what else was said! (Unless I log in. which aint gonna happen. Or I could go ask, in person. Which is more likely.)
But what about OTHER people who post things? I have no way of knowing their complete thoughts.
just another reason to dislike the book of face.

Sunday, July 15, 2018

wii u woes

Our Wii U gamepad no longer functions. For  while, it was workng, but only if it was near th Wii U itself. And now... completely kaput.
That's been the case for a while now. It's (at least) 100 dollars to have it sent to Nintendo to get repaired, and we don't have the extra cash to get that done. (And when we do get money, there are numerous other items that tke precedent.)

I just was reminded, though, of all the games we haaave on our Wii U that we can't play. Super Mario Maker, Captain Toad, Mario Kart 8... well, some day.

Saturday, July 07, 2018

that'll do

Had a dream last night that Key and Peele were in a third Babe movie.
In the dream, they were transporting Babe ...somewhere, and they had to travel by hot air balloon. There may have been a joke about pigs flying involved.

I don't remember much else from the dream, but now that I've thrown this idea out there, Hollywood, ya'll need to run with it.

Tuesday, July 03, 2018

top 100 horror movies of all time

What? No Maximum Overdrive? Who made who, indeed.

Anyway. Remember when lists were a thing people did? Good times.

So. Here's a list of the top 100 horror movies - OF ALL TIME. (Oddly, no horror movies appear to be made after 2017. Guess real life is scary enough at that point.)
Also, this list was compiled by critics, so, you know, it's not necessarily ...accurate.

I'm bolding the ones I've seen.

Here's the list:
100. Willow Creek (2014)
99.   Split (2017)
98.   Santa Sangre (1989)
97.   The Others (2001)
96.   The Conjuring 2 (2016)
95.   Dressed to Kill (1984)
94.   Dracula: Pages from a Virgin's Diary (2003)
93.   Save the Green Planet (2004)
92.   The House of the Devil (2009)
91.   We Are What We Are (2013)
90.   The Thing (1982)
89.   Paranormal Activity (2009)
88.   Backcountry (2015)
87.   Gremlins (1984)
86.   The Autopsy of Jane Doe (2016)
85.   Spring (2015)
84.   Altered States (1980)
83.   A Field in England (2014)
82.   Ginger Snaps (2001)
81.   Slither (2006)
80.   The Omen (1976)
79.   The Descent (2006)
78.   Goodnight Mommy (Ich seh, Ich seh) (2015)
77.   Chronicle (2012)
76.   The Devil's Candy (2017)
75.   This Is The End (2013)
74.   Donnie Darko: The Director's Cut (2004)
73.   Henry: Portrait of a Serial Killer (1986)
72.   Poltergeist (1982)
71.   An American Werewolf in London (1981)
70.   Near Dark (1987)
69.   28 Days Later (2003)
68.   The Orphanage (2007)
67.   Bone Tomahawk (2015)
66.   Gerald's Game (2017)
65.   Cronos (1994)
64.   The Shining (1980)
63.   Misery (1990)
62.   The Dead Zone (1983)
61.   The Conjuring (2013)
60.   The Exorcist (1973)
59.   The Blair Witch Project (1999)
58.   Frankenweenie (2012)
57.   Let Me In (2010)
56.   The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974)
55.   Little Shop of Horrors (1986)
54.   The Wicker Man (1973)
53.   Don't Breathe (2016)
52.   We Are Still Here (2015)
51.   Phantom of the Opera (1925)
50.   Dawn of the Dead (1979)
49.   The Fly (1986)
48.   Eraserhead (1977)
47.   Suspiria (1977)
46.   What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? (1962)
45.   It Comes at Night (2017)
44.   Dracula (1931)
43.   Zombieland (2009)
42.   Shaun of the Dead (2004)
41.   The Host (2007)
40.   A Nightmare on Elm Street (1984)
39.   Train to Busan (Busanhaeng) (2016)
38.   Re-Animator (1985)
37.   Room 237
36.   The Love Witch (2016)
35.   Nosferatu: Phantom der Nacht (Nosferatu the Vampyre) (1979)
34.   Halloween (1978)
33.   Young Frankenstein (1974)
32.   The Loved Ones (2012)
31.   The Evil Dead (1981)
30.   Carrie (1976)
29.   Invasion of the Body Snatchers (1978)
28.   Drag Me To Hell (2009)
27.   A Girl Walks Home Alone At Night (2014)
26.   The Innocents (1961)
25.   The Vanishing (Spoorloos) (1981)
24.   Don't Look Now (1973)
23.   The Cabin in the Woods (2012)
22.   The Birds (1963)
21.   Gojira (1956)
20.   The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
19.   Evil Dead 2: Dead by Dawn (1987)
18.   The Witch (2016)
17.   Pan's Labyrinth (2006)
16.   Eyes Without a Face (1962)
15.   Night of the Living Dead (1968)
14.   Freaks (1932)
13.   Aliens (1986)
12.   Let the Right One In (2008)
11.   It Follows (2015)
10.   Frankenstein (1931)
9.     Rosemary's Baby (1968)
8.     The Babadook (2014)
7.     The Bride of Frankenstein (1935)
6.     Repulsion (1965)
5.     King Kong (1933)
4.     Nosferatu, A Symphony of Horror (Nosferatu, eine Symphonie des Grauens) (Nosferatu the Vampire) (1922)
3.     Psycho (1960)
2.     The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari (Das Cabinet des Dr. Caligari) (1920)
1.     Get Out (2017)

Hm. Looks like I have a lot of catching up to do. 

Sunday, July 01, 2018

twe eig te

2018 is half way over.

I had thought about making a post about ICE, and how, while it's great that the idea of abolishing it has started to gain momentum, I'd prefer that the idea of "prosecute ICE" would grab hold. I guess maybe one step at a time. But,  I shouldn't hold my breath. Heaven forbid that anyone with power actually face any consequences for their abuses.

Anyway, I guess I *did* make that post, since, really, that's all it was going to say. Heh.

Friday, June 22, 2018

you know what, never mind. Contour, what's this song

ugh. SUCH a horribly delivered commercial. The content itself is meh, but the people reading the lines should be ...well, they shouldn't have been compensated for it, let's put it that way.

Anywhat, today was somehow even longer than the longest day of the year, but if there's anything the past two years have taught us, it's that this timeline will constatnly find new ways to surprise you with what you thought wasn't possible.

Speaking of! I totally want a Melania jacket. It would come in handy SO often.
Eh. I guess I don't really care that much. (I do expect that it will make appearances come Halloween time, though. Although the distance between now and end of October is pretty wide, and people's memories are short.... guess it depends on what ELSE happens between now and then. Maybe she'll have other messages on other jackets.)

There was something else on my mind to blog about while I was driving home, and, now, as is typical, I can't remember what it was. Ah well.

"Well what do ya know."

Thursday, June 21, 2018

it's been a long day

Man, sometimes - not often enough, lately, but sometimes - I am really funny.

Anyway, yes. Long, hot day. One could say it's been the longest. And the hottest. And you'd be correct on both counts.

It's all downhill from here. (Well, until it starts being uphill again. Oh, earth, with your rotational movements. Never change.)

Sunday, June 17, 2018

almost forgot to blog

But then I remembered at (more or less) the last minute. Crisis averted.

....Until Next Time...

Saturday, June 16, 2018

water day it was

Went out to Cowabunga Bay for about 4 hours today, rode around on the lazy river and nearly drowned in the wave pool, and slid down the "Surfin USA" water slide, and had really expensive pizza. I'm exhausted, but it was a good time. We have a season pass for the four of us (me, Steph, and the younger kids), so hopefully we can go at least a few more times during the year.

Thursday, June 14, 2018


pretty good bday.
Worked, which was eh, but not all that bad. Saren bought me sodas, Wendy brought in a strawberry cake, and Joni got me a gift card to Amazon.
Then we went to dinner at Peter Piper Pizza (because i'm a grown up) and bought some new board games ("Unearth" and "Hey, That's My Fish")
uploaded the one year anniversary vlog post for OK What Now
and played some Mario Party Ten.
blogged, and now I'm going to go to bed - because I'm old, and going to bed at 930 at night is a freaking awesome present, shut up, you'll understand when you're older.

Sunday, June 10, 2018

FireLickyCat Scratch Fever

Scratch, a coding site created by MIT, has caught Silas's interest lately. He's created quite a few games on there, and they're pretty cool. His username there is FireLickyCat, and you can find all his creations here.

Thursday, June 07, 2018

oh, there it is

Guess my spark for story ideas just took a month off. It's back now. (Which is good, I was starting to miss it)
Now I just need to ensure that I *do* something with it.

(Easier said than done, especially when the 103 degree heat, driving, and stress from the work day make it so all I really want to do is sleep for the next four hours...)

Monday, June 04, 2018

done done on to the next one

It's been a month(ish) since I wrote the second draft of Stupid Monsters - and other than the teacher, nobody has given me feedback, which is... um. Okay, actually, my dad sort of did, and Saren said she liked it, and a coworker said she liked it, but otherwise, I'm still left longing in the constructive (or otherwise!) criticism department.

As a result, I've not gone back to do any of the (necessary) work on it. *I* haven't even reread the story since I wrote it.

So, it only makes sense that an idea for a sort of sequel would start popping up in my mind. It's *just* an idea at this point - not even a plot or really any characters (other than one, and she's really just an avatar)... but it's not going away. Hrm.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

go knights go

So, we (along with, apparently, 29% of all other television sets in the city of Las Vegas) watched (part of) the Stanley Cup game one yesterday. It was wildly entertaining! Even though we didn't watch the entire game (I did go online later to make sure the Knights won - and they did (and I felt pride about it! What in the world is happening???)), I ...kind of got sucked into it a bit. Like, I don't care about sports or hockey teams or any of that AT ALL.
And yet... I found myself getting tense whenever the capitals were near our net, and ... yeah. I guess I can kind of see how you could easily get into it.

I'll still be very glad when all the games are done, since it's a massive amount of extra work for me (and a LOT of pressure/stress since the commercials that are airing during the games are SUPER pricey. I screw something up there, it's gonna be noticed, for sure). But, still. Go Knights Go.

Friday, May 25, 2018

oh, oh, oh, it's magic

So, I went to Firehouse subs to pick up dinner tonight. I ordered 3 subs, two drinks, and two cookies.
After I paid, the clerk handed me the cups and I went to fill them up, then sat down at a nearby table and waited while the subs were being prepared.
I realized then that the cookies I ordered were sitting on the counter in front of the clerk, and I was supposed to grab them myself.
So, I approached the counter and took a chocolate chip and an oatmeal raisin cookie that were in the pile of saran-wrapped cookies. I then sat back down, and waited.

Food gets done, and the employee that made my food handed me my bag of sandwiches. I thanked him, and left.

I get home, and we start going through our sandwiches - they were all in cardboard containers - each with a numbered sticker on them; 1, 2, 3. (I'm guessing that it matched the receipt, but I didn't keep it, and can't confirm that.)

After we finished the sandwiches, we went to eat the cookies. And that's when I saw that the chocolate chip cookie had a sticker with the #4 on it, and the oatmeal raisin had a sticker with the #5 on it.


Nobody touched the cookies but me. And, yes, i'm sure the stickers were on there all along, but... why would they have stickers on the cookies out on display, and how coincidental is it that I would grab the ones that corresponded with the amount of items I was purchasing??

I feel almost like I'm on the Carbonaro Effect, except that it's not *that* crazy a trick, and also, it wasn't discovered until I was at home, and there were no cameras here to film me when the surprise happened. (That I know of)
But, still.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

so long ambition, so long desire, hello apathy

So, since two weeks ago (no, wait, three? nope - two.) when my class ended, I've had pretty much zero drive to write again. Sigh. I guess it was fun while it lasted.

I've thought about revisiting/revising Stupid Monsters again, a little bit. But that's as far as it's gone. A little thought. I haven't even reread it completely through myself. I assume that when I *do* read it again, that that will mean I'm ready to take that step  of working on it again.
Of course, it's equally likely that it will join the list of all my past work and just continue collecting dust.

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

it was "Laurel" last night, and the first part of this morning. But since about 10, it's consistently been "Yanny".

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Think my years of bad living are finally catching up to me. I feel drained and bluh.
Anyway, it's really weird to think that every single person you see came from a mother. It's just ...sort of amazing.And yet ordinary and super common.

Monday, May 07, 2018

2 sad semesters it was only 15 grand

So, all done with school.
Fittingly I finished my second draft (71 pages, exclamation point) of Stupid Monsters today. I turned it in to the teach, and also emailed copies to the rest of the class. I appreciated a lot of their insights and feedback, and told them as much. They've got my personal email address, so, if a friendship or two can be maintained from that, well, that'll be cool. I really hope, though, that I'll be able to keep up my motivation and [urgh, someotherword I can't think of right now] for writing.
SMv2 has some obvious flaws in it as well, and in a week or so, I plan on going back and fixing things, even if I don't receive any additional criticism from anyone that has read it. So, that's of the good. I also hope that I can generate the muster to creating something OTHER than Stupid Monsters. It's a great, fun universe I've made, but I feel like for the past month or two it's ALL i've done creatively. (partly because that's the case)

Thursday, May 03, 2018

next question, please

the universe is just a big old simulation designed to answer questions posed by whomever is running it.
Since, oh, July of 2015, the question was "How many laws can a wealthy scum fuck get away with breaking with no repercussions?" And now we have seen that the answer is "All of them."
So, now that we have the answer, can we just move on to a more interesting and less stress inducing situation? Please?

Monday, April 30, 2018

flash fiction short story novella novel series

Stupid Monsters just won't stop growing. I'm *still* working on draft 2 (3?) and i'm on page 52, with ... another 20 to go? Maybe 25? It's (mostly) plotted out, but as I type it up (and the problem is that each week I say, "Okay, gonna work on the story now" and then I DON'T, until freaking Sunday/Monday, and then I spend all day doing the work I should have done over the course of the past seven days....
Anyway. As I keep typing it out, it just...kinda keeps going. Which is fine, it needs to be as long as it needs to be. I just need to get it DONE so that I can start fixing the stuff that I know needs fixing.

And, you know, tonight (in 17 minutes, actually, so I need to wrap this up and make my way to the class...) is the penultimate session. And people have expressed a LARGE desire to read the finished product, so I feel like if I don't get it done soon, I'm not only disappointing myself, but my followers (heh) too.

Thursday, April 26, 2018

lost time and whatever else

i can not believe that it is twenty-eighteen. And already (almost) the 5th month. So often I hear people talk about stuff from 2011 or 2006 or 2017 and I'm like, ...oh, yeah. Those are all in the past. It REALLY doesn't feel like it a lot of the time. Is that a symptom of getting older? Where it still feels like fifteen years ago, date wise? Or is it just a me thing? Or both. Probably both. 

I've got a sleeping (though awake now, because children are loud and noisy) dog next to me, that's a pretty great thing.

Every Friday my work does a segment during the noon news called "Forever Home Friday" where the Animal Foundation brings in a dog (and every once in a while a cat) to be adopted. Supposedly EVERY single animal they've ever showcased has ended up getting bought. And they've been doing this segment for decades. Which is pretty darn cool, actually. I'm all for things that increase the amount of joy in the world. Lord knows there's plenty of garbage out there, and things that are working against people's happiness. 

Speaking of increasing joy... we're going to go grab some food for dinner, and possibly get a new board game. 

Sunday, April 22, 2018

to make a long story short - too late!!

So, I'm mid re-write of Stupid Monsters, and I know I was told to make the story "as long as it needs to be", but.... I'm on page 28*. And I'm at ...maybe the 51% point?
I think it's still a decent story, I'm just... it might be too much of a good thing? I don't know. I'm going to finish it up, and see what people say, but it wouldn't surprise me if "dial it back some" is in the feedback I end up getting. Heh.

*(For comparison's sake, draft 1 was 18 pages, although the final three or four were quite obviously rushed)

Tuesday, April 10, 2018


not today, apparently. you'd think I'd learn.  And, honestly, the idea was sort of lame to begin with, and I don't even know if i want to do it at all. (OF course, i'm also running on 4.5 hours of sleep, so maybe my mindset isn't teh best right now either0

Sunday, April 08, 2018

Grading Awol

I like AWOLNATION. The band has put out 3 albums now, each with 14 tracks on it. There have also been three different songs from various soundtracks, bringing the total number of songs I'm familiar with to 45. (I'm positive that they have other songs in their oeuvre, but, we're sticking with what I know.)
For the next five entries, I'll be picking 9 songs to discuss. I'll be talking about the songs, the lyrics, and, if they have one available, the music video.
Each song will be assigned a number, 1 - 45, and then I'll use the magic of the internet to select 9 randomly chosen numbers to determine which order the songs get talked about. 
The songs (and their numbers) are:

From the album Megalithic Symphony:
1. "Megalithic Symphony"
2. "Some Sort of Creature"
3. "Soul Wars"
4. "People"
5. "Jump on My Shoulders"
6. "Burn It Down"
7. "Guilty Filthy Soul"
8. "Kill Your Heroes"
9. "My Nightmare's Dream"
10. "Sail"
11. "Wake Up"
12. "Not Your Fault"
13.  "All I Need"
14. "Knights of Shame"

From the soundtrack for the video game Injustice: Gods Among Us:

From the album Run:
16. "Run"
17. "Fat Face"
18. "Hollow Moon (Bad Wolf)"
19. "Jailbreak"
21. "I Am"
22. "Headrest for my Soul"
23. "Dreamers"
24. "Windows"
25. "Holy Roller"
26. "Woman Woman"
27. "Lie Love Live Love"
28. "Like People, Like Plastic"
29. "Drinking Lightning"

From the soundtrack for Iron Man 3:
30. "Some Kind of Joke"

From the album Here Come the Runts:
31. "Here Come the Runts"
32. "Passion"
33. "Sound Witness System"
34. "Miracle Man"
35. "Handyman"
36. "Jealous Buffoon"
37. "Seven Sticks of Dynamite"
38. "A Little Luck... and a Couple of Dogs"
39. "Table for One"
40. "My Molassess"
41. "Cannonball"
42. "Tall, Tall Tale"
43. "The Buffoon"
44. "Stop That Train"

From the soundtrack for Fifty Shades of Grey:
45. "I'm On Fire"

Wednesday, April 04, 2018


almost 20 years ago today (it was 19), was the day that Steph and I got to go backstage before the Garbage concert and meet the band, and the photo with me and Shirley Manson was taken.

That's crazy.

I got nothing else to blog about - I was going to start the Awolnation posts, but since I fell asleep during Survivor, (my office pick got voted out, but he was a garbage person anyway, so even though I won't win the jackpot, at least he's not on our screens anymore) I'm obviously not awake enough to create soemthing that requires that much brain power and googling, so... next time it is.

Tuesday, April 03, 2018

workshop done

The workshop yesterday went pretty well. I had originally planned on recording it with my phone, but didn't - didn't have time to set it up and/or ask if it would be allowed, plus it went on for nearly 20 minutes and I don't think I had that much free space/battery power left on my phone. But, I received quite a bit of interesting feedback, along with an idea on how to tweak a certain element of the story that changes a LOT, but could make it better in a lot of ways. I was going to post it here - I may, still, but I ...might wait until after the semester, because I don't know if posting it online is something that I'm "allowed" to do. I may be over thinking this. heh.

We'll see, I guess. I might post "Stupid Monsters" for my next blog post, or I might go with my planned Awolnation post(s) instead. Or maybe something different altogether.

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

note to self:

Don't make plans.

Thursday, March 22, 2018

no, time

seriously, where does it go?? How can X amount of time simply ...get used up?
And, dude. Google. Enough, kay? I'm not a machine. Give it a rest.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

14 tabs opened right now
working on powerpoint presentations
trying to think of
what to blog
what to write
what to read
what to say

it's national poetry day, apparently, even though national poetry MONTH is April. Who decides these things?? Did they not coordinate with one another? Is there a national poetry week, too? I bet that's in August or something. .....aaaah! Okay, if I were more inclined to simply go back and erase what I wrote, I'd look a little less foolish, but whatever.  Mistakes equal learning. (Well, sometimes)
So, it's WORLD poetry day today, and NATIONAL poetry month in April. That makes things clearer.

Anyway, you'd think that with my recent foray into poetry with my class that I'd be all over the idea of creating some poetry to share right now.

You'd think.

...actually, no, I'm not going to poem-it-up right now, but I DO have some lyrics in my head that are hilarious and apt. And, so, I'll end it with those.

so smooth you can hear the beard
so smooth you can hear the beard
three times is poetry
so smooth you can hear the beard

Tuesday, March 20, 2018


Ugh. I turned in my short story to be workshopped in creative writing yesterday, and NEXT Monday is spring break, so I have to wait TWO weeks before I'm able to get feedback!
Meanwhile, my brain has been going over it repeatedly, thinking about the things I liked (a surpsingly large percentage, actually) and the things I didn't/know can be improved upon (...also a surprisingly large percentage.) Okay, not really, there ARE flaws, of course, and I'm curious to see whether anyone else points out what I've got in mind. But I have to wait another 13 days. Agony.

Perhaps once I've gone through the feedback stage, I'll post it here.

Friday, March 16, 2018


Not kidding!

Wednesday, March 14, 2018


It's Pi day, Pi day, gotta get down on Pi day...

I'll need to circle by the grocery store on the way home from work to buy a pie.

I have a lot of writing to do this week and no desire (currently) to do any of it. That'll undoubtedly change - most certainly when I'm in the car, away from my notebooks, pens, and keyboards.

Speaking of which, it's practically time to get going... so, this entry was short and meaningless. I really should start planning topics ahead.

end(ish) of the day edit - bought two pies - one cherry, one pumpkin. Then got home, walked thru the door, and promptly dropped the cherry pie all over the floor and Silas's brand new shoes. Sad pie day.
The pumpkin is still fine, and I'm sure the rest of the family will enjoy it (I don't like pumpkin pie), but, man, what an unfortunate event. 

Monday, March 12, 2018

what even

I haven't been following the news lately, but the cold open from SNL and just the general feeling in the air... is the Mueller investigation a bust? Did ...Trump actually get away with his shit? Again? Cuz, dude. Just fuck that noise thirty-nine times.  Hopefully I'm wrong, but I'm too tired to confirm (or deny) it right now, and, honestly, a little too worried to look and find out that, yeah, it's as bad as I fear.

Friday, March 09, 2018

stalling/ procrastinating/ other words that mean that

Ugh. I have a ton of school work to do, and zero desire to do any of it. As is evidenced by a) that I'm blogging and b) that it's all due TODAY, and I've had the last five days when I could have worked on any of it, but didn't. Sigh.

And, at least, I'm telling myself this so I can sleep at night (hahaha), IN THEORY today I was going to be all gung-ho about getting shit done, but then I had a really REALLY bad day at work, and it freaking drained any drive I had to do pretty much anything straight outta me.

I have done SOME school stuff, so it's not a complete waste of a day. And there are still a little over five hours left before the deadline of midnight, so... yeah.

Thursday, March 08, 2018

What we need

(this is the villanelle I wrote last week for my creative writing course)

Let me tell you what it is we need.
A few more guns inside our schools.
Freedom, give it up, sacrifice to bleed.

You think you want leaders who know how to lead.
Instead we have actors who break all the rules.
Let me tell you what it is we need.

The engines are running, running on greed
blood, tears, and oil - are there alternate fuels?
Freedom, give it up, sacrifice to bleed.

"The other side is wrong" is everyone's creed.
Divisions deepen. A side, you must choose.
Let me tell you what it is we need.

We're falling apart with sickening speed.
All our old heroes, now just tarnished old fools.
Freedom, give it up, sacrifice to bleed.

Thoughts and prayers while victims plead.
Online echo chambers becoming cesspools.
Let me tell you what it is we need.
Freedom, give it up, sacrifice to bleed.

Wednesday, March 07, 2018

I knew you were going to be a good time to time.

I've got nothing else to blog about right now, so I'm going to do a few predictive texts, just for fun.

Everything after the bold will be whatever my phone predicts should be said next from these famous movie quotes.

May the force of the day, February 15th, and I have to do the same time.

If my calculations are correct, when this baby hits 88 miles per hour, and I have to do the same time.

The first rule of Fight Club is a good thing, right?

My Mama always said "Life is like a box of chocolates; the same time.

When someone asks, "Are you a god?" you say that I have a vehicle to the ftp site under the filename of resend.

Nobody puts Baby Einstein the same time.

I'm mad as hell, and I have to do the same time.

...okay. Obviously, I need to "do the same time" a LOT.  Maybe I'll try this again at some point, but with something other than movie quotes (or different ones, for whatever reason my brain was blanking on quotable films).

Tuesday, March 06, 2018

insomnia is fun

no, wait. it's the opposite of that.

Friday, March 02, 2018

time Marches on

how in the world did it get to be March already?

And of twenty-freaking-eighteen?????

Work was exhausting, yet again, because it was Friday, and for the last two hours or so of my shift, technology was not my friend. Made for a very frustrating experience.

But, home now, and I don't have to worry about work for forty-eight-ish hours, so.

For my creative writing class this week we had to write a villanelle.  A villanelle is a style of poem that apparently is obscure enough that blogger's word processor has it underlined in red. But, basically it's a 19 line poem that uses two rhymes throughout, and alternately repeats lines 1 and 3. So, it's A B A, A B repeat line 1,  A B repeat line 3, A B repeat line 1, A B repeat line 3, A B repeat line 1 repeat line 3.

Not easy to do, but the one I wrote is... decent. After I get feedback on it, I may end up posting it here. If I had more free time (and, let's be honest, more ambition) I think it might be sort of fun to try and compose some more of them. 

Next week is the end of poetry, and then it's on to fiction. Woot woot! Although that means the class is already half way finished. Boo. I've enjoyed the poetry section a good deal more than I anticipated I would, though. It ain't all bad.

Saturday, February 10, 2018

weekend update

heh. No SNL news, just an update on things that have gone on this weekend.

Watched Jigsaw (ehhh, it was better than 7, but that's a pretty low bar to clear), played Enchanted Forest, (Stephanie won), read a horrible short story for class ("Paul's Case" by Willa Cather), washing machine finally kicked the bucket, put the super-old tricycle out to the curb (so sad!), and now I've blogged. Not all that exciting a day, but there ya have it.

Friday, February 09, 2018

nothing new under the sun

...did you try checking behind it?

Just having one of those afternoons where I can't seem to find the motivation to type up anything. On the bright side, I've finished (or will have, once I publish this) my blog post for today, so that's one thing down. still have a short history response, an english 102 discussion post to make, and some poetry to write. One thing at a time, I guess.

Relating back to the topic, for a second, what made me think of that was how part of what's holding me back (of getting started to write) is the feeling that, to quote the Barenaked Ladies, "it's all been done". (woo hoo hoo!)

And, yeah, it probably has, but, so what? Originality ain't all that, is it? I just read The Yellow Wallpaper for the first time ever, and it's been mimicked hundreds of times, but it was still a great short story.

Eh. I just went down the tvtropes rabbit hole for a while, and lost my train of thought, and my desire to even continue with it. Besides, I still have all that school work to do...

Thursday, February 08, 2018

muse hunting

As I've mentioned before, I'm enjoying my Creative Writing course.

I have to write two (!!) poems sometime before Monday. (Heh, I'm pretty tired right now, and originally started to type "Wednesday". Time is meaningless!) I'm being 'workshopped' on Monday, which means that the two poems I bring in will be critiqued by the whole class. (Assuming the whole class shows up. This past Monday there were five people absent, out of a class of 16. Although it WAS the Monday after the Superbowl, and (apparently!?) that's the biggest sick day of the year. Maybe that counts for classes, too.)

So, yeah. Gots to get my creative on, and pretty soon, too.
I've already got one of the poems written, and I'm fairly proud of it (we'll see if my opinion changes after having it picked apart). But I still need to get one more written that I feel comfortable bringing in to the vultures. And then I have to write one for my weekly writing assignment. (There is nothing that says that that can't be the same poem, so, I mean, *technically* I could save myself some time and effort by only writing ONE new poem. But, I rarely do things the efficient way. Plus, I would rather actually create two. I WANT to make more art. I'm just feeling. tired. uninspired. wishing I was wired. ... okay, i'll stop, because rhyming is ...ergh. something. Have I mentioned how tired I am? I feel like I have.

Right now, i'm at the library, using one of their computers, hoping that inspiration strikes. Oh! I was going to write down some phrases that I wanted to just keep in my toolbox.
"Broken ocean" was one of them.
And I hada  few others while I was driving in, but, of course, that was when I was nowhwere near a computer or a piece of paper.
"weasel fucking" (or, rather,  "weasels fucking" - I guess there really IS a difference between those two...)
oh, I rmember now - "as confusing as a four-way stop" (or as "hesitant", not sure which is better; guess it depends on the piece it's being used in)
"as neglected as a Christmas tree in March"
"revised our relationship like a Wikipedia entry"

I've been trying to pick up more metaphors and similes during my day-to-day life. You can see and judge the results above.

For now, though, I need to get ready for my Com 101 class, so I'll publish this and be done with it.

Saturday, February 03, 2018

27 years from now

The date can be written as 2/3/45, so that's something kind of cool to look forward to.

Thursday, February 01, 2018

Our bean is a teen

To celebrate we went to Gravady, had Sonic for lunch, took her to Clare's for her to get new fake nails, and later there will be pizza, popcorn and Potter (we're working our way thru the series by book & movie, Azkaban the book was finished last night, so the movie will be watched in a few hours).
All in all, a pretty great day. (Although I still can't believe she's a teenager now!!)

Happy Birthday, Irina-bean!!

Friday, January 26, 2018

You can't find the woods while you're hiding in the trees

("Right Where It Belongs by Nine Inch Nails)

Random ..ish. entry time.

I keep having moments of near enlightenment? Semi-woke-ness? I don't know what to call it exactly, but it's like these flashes of insight of things that should be obvious to like, everyone. An example. The other day while driving, I realized that everyone else has their own worlds they are in. That even people I dislike or don't really think about at all... they have their own backstories and lives and dreams and fears and wants and thoughts and ideas. And...yea, obviously I've thought that and known that and I don't think of every single person as some sort of NPC or anything like that, but it's just ...sometimes you kind of forget that all these other people are.... other people. And the realization hit me and it was just like Oh my god. That guy actually exists BEYOND the three minutes that I interacted with him.
I'm explaining it horribly, I suspect. OR I'm maybe making myself sound borderline psychotic, but that's another thing, lately I've been running low on fucks to give about how I'm perceived.
Okay, that's a gross over-exaggeration, because I am still largely motivated by other's perceptions of me, but and there, I'm starting to accept the idea that "who cares if I look foolish?" Or if I'm wrong about something? Yolo, right? Congrats, P@, it only took 40 years to start to grow up.
Interestingly, I think that it's my classes that are pushing these developments. We had to give impromptu speeches last Tuesday, and while I was still shaky/nervous before (and a little bit after), I did fine, and I was like, "I'm just going to give it my best, and it's not like I'm ever going to see any of these people again after the next three months, so does it really matter what they think?"
Anyway. Yesterday during Com class we watched a few TED speeches, and one of them was from a teacher and she said something that had me have one of those "mini-woke" moments - she talked about how she has had classes that she felt like she failed because they didn't meet academic guidelines (I'm paraphrasing), and it just hit me that ...teachers have to feel a massive amount of responsibility for whether their students pass or fail or are learning or are interested at all. It was like, "holy cow, I never REALLY thought of it from the teacher's point of view before."
Speaking of teachers... one of my friends in high school - a guy I really admired - wound up becoming a teacher. About a year ago, I decided to google him, just to see what he's been up to (we haven't spoken in nearly 2 decades, I am not in touch with anyone that I attended high school with) and ...found that he had been arrested for inappropriate conduct with a student.
It's like, jesus, it really is #allmen.
I had an idea for a story (or, hey, maybe it should be a reality) of a pill that reduces/eliminates libido. It would be called Libidon't. (heh) But, seriously, I wonder if there were a way to make men less interested in passing on their genetic code if that would ...fix anything. Probably a lot of stuff, yeah, but I'm sure there would still be some other problems. Maybe. Because I do think that SO MUCH of the craptacular toxic masculinity rape culture problems we have derives from the power of the penis and guys believing that they need/deserve to do whatever it takes in order to spread their seed.
Since this is a random entry, I don't really have a conclusion, and I have other things I need to be doing online, so I'm just gonna hit publish and leave it at that.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

busy days ahead

It's Thursday, which means I have a class to attend (I'm at CSN now, as I type this up - taking a brief break in between other online assignments, and getting ready to head to my Communications course, which is starting in a little over an hour).

I also haven't filmed today's OK What Now episode, so I need to do that shortly. (It'll be episode 98, which is somewhat amazing that I've already gotten that high.)

Next week I've got creative writing on Monday.

Tuesday and Thursday of next week are speech days in Comm 101 - mine is due Thursday, so I have ...exactly (well, a little over) one week to finish my 3-5 minute autobiographical speech. I wonder if I could just read blog entries for my speech, and if that would be sufficient. Heh.

Wednesday of next week is the last day of January, so I need to make my yearly joke that day. (It feels like it's been January all year long*) Wednesday will also be episode 100 of OK What Now, and I currently have NOTHING special planned for it. Harper suggested I buy 100 Reese's Peanut Butter cups. Or, 50, I guess, since they come in pairs. And then I eat them all. That ...does not actually sound appealing, because much as I love some peanut butter cups, teh thought of that many is nauseating.

Next Thursday is both February 1st (Irina's birthday) and my speech day. I'm taking that day off work, naturally.

And then Friday is Groundhog Day AND it's my turn to bring food in to the office. A few months ago, our department decided that every first Friday of the month one of us would cook something up, and bring it in to share. I agreed to this idea with the thought that I would simply BUY something to bring in, only to find out that it apparently has to be homemade. Stupid fine print. Anyway, I am thinking that this time will be soup of some kind, because soup is easy, and it's a winterish type food.

So, yeah. Lots of stuff coming up. Now I need to get back to school stuff.

*totally counts, in case I don't get a chance to blog on 1/31/18.

Monday, January 22, 2018

hey hey hey let's not do drugs

So, tonight was the first class of my English 205 (Introduction to Creative Writing: Fiction & Poetry) course, and it was a blast! Online classes are fine, but I think being in person (at least with this and my communications 101 class, which is the other in-person course I'm taking this semester) allows me to get more out of it.
It helps matters that this course seems like a very fun one - the teacher is very fun, with a great sense of humor, and the students are all pretty cool, too.
But what's really surprising to me is that in both classes (I've attended 3 now, two of the Comm. and then the one English tonight) I've spoken up, like a lot. And that just doesn't seem like ME, ya know? I'm not one to draw attention to myself, but, evidently, I enjoy having a little bit of a spotlight on me. Who knew?

Tonight's class had me sharing all sorts of stuff - I related the "bomb/bong" story, I sang the turtle-peep song, and I gave my Patypical interpretations of some poems. And people loved it all! Oh, and I had to write some doggerel (bad poetry), which I also shared, and because it is internet related, and because we all love bad poetry, I'm going to share with you all now:

So-social media
I posted my love on the book of Face
I posted my love all over the place
I was looking for likes
and thumbs up and views
I was looking for love
from you.
My heart is a-Twitter whenever I tweet
someday I hope we will meet
I follow your instagram and I send you email
why does my love for you always fail?

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

that's my secret, I'm angry all the time

There's probably something wrong with me. Well, ha ha ha, there's a lot wrong with me, but specifically, for the past... however long, month, two, five? I don't know exactly, time is meaningless, but for however long, I have been mad a lot. And it's RAGE. I'm furious when I drive.

While driving is the main impetus for my anger, it's also crept into my work day. I find myself swearing at emails and occasionally actually typing out my profanities (I erase them before sending, of course, because I do like having a job that pays for stuff) and lately I"ve been noticing i get curt more and more with coworkers who are making requests that aren't all that unusual, just slightly inconvenient, but they're causing my rage levels to rise.

I came to the realization that anger is about lack of control, and that keeping in mind that control is illusory may be the way to keep that in check.

Monday, January 15, 2018

Roming roon to Retflix

The crazy hijinks of two upper-class millennials (woo, avocado toast!), a reporter, a recovering drug addict, and their genetically altered canine who can speak partial English. (But only the druggie can hear him, maybe?)

They travel across the country kink-shaming old white guys who enjoy dressing up as supernatural beings. (There are surprisingly quite a lot of them. Freaking Republicans, man.)

Saturday, January 13, 2018

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away

We've been on a very Star Warsy kick lately, having the youngins watch the original trilogy over the past couple days, and then we just returned from watching episode 8 in the theaters. (No spoilers for The Last Jedi in this blog post, so I'll just say: It was very good.)

I've been trying to avoid the internet for fear of spoilers and have, for the most part, been pretty successful, but one of the things I have gleaned is that there are some people who were pretty unhappy with the latest installment. That's to be expected, of course, because you can't please everyone, so I was a little bit worried going in that there was going to be something about the movie that was going to cause ...well, I don't know what I was fearing, honestly. Because, like I said, I've been avoiding things, so I wasn't sure WHY people seemed upset.
...and after having watched the film, the answer is obvious. It's because people are, by and large, stupid, and like to get outraged about trivial matters.
The newest Star Wars is excellent (if a little long) and there is absolutely no reason to hate on it.

Now, the ending of Return of the Jedi, on the other hand... (having not seen the prequels, the kids needed us to tell them who that third ghost was). Also, the entire Star Wars movies love them some wipes, don't they?

Anyway, really looking forward to episode 9, just have to wait another year and a half-ish.

Tuesday, January 09, 2018


Can you believe it's the 9th already? Like, seriously, where did the first week of 2018 vanish to? It feels like it should be the 3rd. Maybe the 4th. Weird.

I went to the doctorb yesterday; everything seems to be fine, I guess. They took an EKG and said it looked normal. My blood pressure was a little high. They took blood & urine... but I have to go back next week to find out the results, I guess. Honestly, the only reason I really even went was because I needed a new prescription for my asthma inhaler. (Done) The doc did suggest that I take an allergy test in hopes of possibly narrowing down what is causing my asthma flareups. I'm skeptical, but guess we'll see.

It rained more or less all day today and yesterday, after having had absolutely NO rain for the past 110 days. Sadly, it isn't in the forecast that it's going to now rain for 110 days straight to balance it out. But, honestly, the past forty-eight hours have seemed like four months of rain in a way. Rain is great, really. Driving in it, though, is another story. Driverless cars can not get here soon enough.

There's a new promo on air for our news morning show, and it has these singers singing what has to be the worst jingle/song I've heard in a long time. It's truly cringey. I was looking for it online, but I don't think it's made it's way there yet. Once it does, the internet will be a slightly worse place. Sorry, everyone. I didn't make the song, but I still feel like its very existence is a loss for the good guys.