Sunday, May 20, 2018

so long ambition, so long desire, hello apathy

So, since two weeks ago (no, wait, three? nope - two.) when my class ended, I've had pretty much zero drive to write again. Sigh. I guess it was fun while it lasted.

I've thought about revisiting/revising Stupid Monsters again, a little bit. But that's as far as it's gone. A little thought. I haven't even reread it completely through myself. I assume that when I *do* read it again, that that will mean I'm ready to take that step  of working on it again.
Of course, it's equally likely that it will join the list of all my past work and just continue collecting dust.

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

it was "Laurel" last night, and the first part of this morning. But since about 10, it's consistently been "Yanny".

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Think my years of bad living are finally catching up to me. I feel drained and bluh.
Anyway, it's really weird to think that every single person you see came from a mother. It's just ...sort of amazing.And yet ordinary and super common.

Monday, May 07, 2018

2 sad semesters it was only 15 grand

So, all done with school.
Fittingly I finished my second draft (71 pages, exclamation point) of Stupid Monsters today. I turned it in to the teach, and also emailed copies to the rest of the class. I appreciated a lot of their insights and feedback, and told them as much. They've got my personal email address, so, if a friendship or two can be maintained from that, well, that'll be cool. I really hope, though, that I'll be able to keep up my motivation and [urgh, someotherword I can't think of right now] for writing.
SMv2 has some obvious flaws in it as well, and in a week or so, I plan on going back and fixing things, even if I don't receive any additional criticism from anyone that has read it. So, that's of the good. I also hope that I can generate the muster to creating something OTHER than Stupid Monsters. It's a great, fun universe I've made, but I feel like for the past month or two it's ALL i've done creatively. (partly because that's the case)

Thursday, May 03, 2018

next question, please

the universe is just a big old simulation designed to answer questions posed by whomever is running it.
Since, oh, July of 2015, the question was "How many laws can a wealthy scum fuck get away with breaking with no repercussions?" And now we have seen that the answer is "All of them."
So, now that we have the answer, can we just move on to a more interesting and less stress inducing situation? Please?

Monday, April 30, 2018

flash fiction short story novella novel series

Stupid Monsters just won't stop growing. I'm *still* working on draft 2 (3?) and i'm on page 52, with ... another 20 to go? Maybe 25? It's (mostly) plotted out, but as I type it up (and the problem is that each week I say, "Okay, gonna work on the story now" and then I DON'T, until freaking Sunday/Monday, and then I spend all day doing the work I should have done over the course of the past seven days....
Anyway. As I keep typing it out, it just...kinda keeps going. Which is fine, it needs to be as long as it needs to be. I just need to get it DONE so that I can start fixing the stuff that I know needs fixing.

And, you know, tonight (in 17 minutes, actually, so I need to wrap this up and make my way to the class...) is the penultimate session. And people have expressed a LARGE desire to read the finished product, so I feel like if I don't get it done soon, I'm not only disappointing myself, but my followers (heh) too.

Thursday, April 26, 2018

lost time and whatever else

i can not believe that it is twenty-eighteen. And already (almost) the 5th month. So often I hear people talk about stuff from 2011 or 2006 or 2017 and I'm like, ...oh, yeah. Those are all in the past. It REALLY doesn't feel like it a lot of the time. Is that a symptom of getting older? Where it still feels like fifteen years ago, date wise? Or is it just a me thing? Or both. Probably both. 

I've got a sleeping (though awake now, because children are loud and noisy) dog next to me, that's a pretty great thing.

Every Friday my work does a segment during the noon news called "Forever Home Friday" where the Animal Foundation brings in a dog (and every once in a while a cat) to be adopted. Supposedly EVERY single animal they've ever showcased has ended up getting bought. And they've been doing this segment for decades. Which is pretty darn cool, actually. I'm all for things that increase the amount of joy in the world. Lord knows there's plenty of garbage out there, and things that are working against people's happiness. 

Speaking of increasing joy... we're going to go grab some food for dinner, and possibly get a new board game. 

Sunday, April 22, 2018

to make a long story short - too late!!

So, I'm mid re-write of Stupid Monsters, and I know I was told to make the story "as long as it needs to be", but.... I'm on page 28*. And I'm at ...maybe the 51% point?
I think it's still a decent story, I'm just... it might be too much of a good thing? I don't know. I'm going to finish it up, and see what people say, but it wouldn't surprise me if "dial it back some" is in the feedback I end up getting. Heh.

*(For comparison's sake, draft 1 was 18 pages, although the final three or four were quite obviously rushed)

Tuesday, April 10, 2018


not today, apparently. you'd think I'd learn.  And, honestly, the idea was sort of lame to begin with, and I don't even know if i want to do it at all. (OF course, i'm also running on 4.5 hours of sleep, so maybe my mindset isn't teh best right now either0

Sunday, April 08, 2018

Grading Awol

I like AWOLNATION. The band has put out 3 albums now, each with 14 tracks on it. There have also been three different songs from various soundtracks, bringing the total number of songs I'm familiar with to 45. (I'm positive that they have other songs in their oeuvre, but, we're sticking with what I know.)
For the next five entries, I'll be picking 9 songs to discuss. I'll be talking about the songs, the lyrics, and, if they have one available, the music video.
Each song will be assigned a number, 1 - 45, and then I'll use the magic of the internet to select 9 randomly chosen numbers to determine which order the songs get talked about. 
The songs (and their numbers) are:

From the album Megalithic Symphony:
1. "Megalithic Symphony"
2. "Some Sort of Creature"
3. "Soul Wars"
4. "People"
5. "Jump on My Shoulders"
6. "Burn It Down"
7. "Guilty Filthy Soul"
8. "Kill Your Heroes"
9. "My Nightmare's Dream"
10. "Sail"
11. "Wake Up"
12. "Not Your Fault"
13.  "All I Need"
14. "Knights of Shame"

From the soundtrack for the video game Injustice: Gods Among Us:

From the album Run:
16. "Run"
17. "Fat Face"
18. "Hollow Moon (Bad Wolf)"
19. "Jailbreak"
21. "I Am"
22. "Headrest for my Soul"
23. "Dreamers"
24. "Windows"
25. "Holy Roller"
26. "Woman Woman"
27. "Lie Love Live Love"
28. "Like People, Like Plastic"
29. "Drinking Lightning"

From the soundtrack for Iron Man 3:
30. "Some Kind of Joke"

From the album Here Come the Runts:
31. "Here Come the Runts"
32. "Passion"
33. "Sound Witness System"
34. "Miracle Man"
35. "Handyman"
36. "Jealous Buffoon"
37. "Seven Sticks of Dynamite"
38. "A Little Luck... and a Couple of Dogs"
39. "Table for One"
40. "My Molassess"
41. "Cannonball"
42. "Tall, Tall Tale"
43. "The Buffoon"
44. "Stop That Train"

From the soundtrack for Fifty Shades of Grey:
45. "I'm On Fire"